different person. She was unhappy and
didn’t
try to hide this fact. Her prayer life
reduced too
and all she could think was that she was
stuck
in this marriage. She wasn’t sure she even
loved her husband again. She spent her
days
wondering what she was really missing in
her
love life even as it related with s*x.
She didn’t think she deserved what she
was
getting, not after remaining a virgin all
her life
until she met her husband. Seeing those
two
make love a few days ago had exposed
her to
the fact that she was not getting the best
in
s*x. How long would she continue to live
like
this? Paul’s presence was simply
annoying and
she was finding it difficult to stand him.
Why
couldn’t he just give her the best in s*x?
Why
couldn’t he make her scream?
She stopped talking freely with him and
spoke
to him only when it was necessary.
Paul was worried too. Something was
eating his
wife up. She was acting like someone who
had
been possessed with evil spirit. He
couldn’t
forget how she had acted the last time he
made
love to her. She was acting like a
prostitute or
like a worldly woman. She had
shamelessly
asked him to rub her femalecore like a
worldly
lady would do. Christians don’t act that
way.
Now she had refused him touching her.
What
had he done wrong? Why had she decided
to
starve him of s*x? He had somehow liked
the
energy she had brought in during their
last s*x
even though it had sounded worldly and
he
would love to have her again. Why was
she
starving him of s*x? What had he done to
deserve such treatment from her?
Ruth had always been such a gentle lady
and
had always been homely and well
mannered.
s*x had never been an issue between
them.
Paul had also noticed a decline in her
Christian
life. What was wrong with his wife? He
was sure
she was angry with him for something he
didn’t
know he had done.
Ruth on the other hand didn’t know why
she
was suddenly acting this way. This was
not the
first time she had wanted more after s*x
with
Paul. Why was she allowing it to get at
her this
way? Why was she suddenly letting the
devil
have his way with her? Why was she
forgetting
her Christian virtues?
She was afraid of the future. Afraid that
the
emptiness she felt could make here run
mad
soonest. The worst part was that she
knew
prayers wouldn’t solve this. The only thing
that
could solve this problem was for Paul to
up his
game. She was angry at Paul for not
knowing
her problem. How could he not know that
he
was not satisfying her sexually? How
couldn’t
he be like their neighbor? Does
Christianity
teach that one shouldn’t be much active
and
energetic during s*x?
Now she can’t help but stare at her
neighbor
whenever she saw him. The memory of his
tight
Buttocks and strong legs would come
flashing into
her head. She would clearly remember him
giving it to that lady like she had never
imagined.
She would run into the kitchen to have a
peep
at him whenever she hears a sound from
his
kitchen. She would spend minutes
watching
him and wishing her would just make love
to
her.
Her Christian virtues entailed that she
would
never have a taste of another man all her
life.
She would never know what it felt like to
have
another man inside her. the young
neighbor’s
manhood was a little bigger than Paul’s.
She
just wondered how it would feel like.
He had caught her staring at him several
times
recently but she didn’t care anymore. The
more
she saw him, the more she wanted to have
him.
But she was knew that she would never do
it.
She had always frowned at fornication,
how
could she think of committing adultery?
The act
was simply abominable and she had seen
women who do it as devils themselves.
How
could a married woman sleep with another
man? God forbid.
But why was she suddenly in the situation
where she was lusting after another man?
Again she couldn’t bring herself to talk to
Paul
about this. All her life she had never been
opened about her sexuality. She had never
discussed her sexual life with anyone.
How can
she look into Paul’s eyes and tell him she
wanted him to give her more in bed. That
would definitely sound ridiculous.
Paul had already decided he would talk to
her
that evening and find out what was wrong
with
her.
She went into the room once she had
served
him his dinner. Usually she would hang
around
and discuss that day with him.
After eating, Pau joined her in the room.
“Can you please talk to me and tell me
what is
bothering you?”
Ruth hadn’t expected him to talk to her
this
evening. She had not prepared an answer
for
him. So she remained silent. She was
lying on
the bed.
“Ruth, please talk to me. What wrong
have I
done to you?” Paul tried again.
Silence.
“Silence can never solve any problem dear.
We
can’t live as man and wife like this
forever.
What wrong have I done that cannot be
spoken
out?” he came closer and sat on the bed.
Why
have you refused to allow me touch you
as your
husband?”
Ruth suddenly faced him and looked into
his
eyes.
“I am not happy. You have never satisfied
me
sexually. You married me a virgin and the
least
you can do for me is make me happy
when it
comesto love making.”
Paul was very surprised at this revelation.
What
in the world is wrong with this woman?
“But
you have never complained about this
before.
Why is this suddenly an issue now?”
“I am bringing it up now Paul. You have
to do
something about it now because I can no
longer bear it. Do something before it is
too
late. I just need to know I married a man
and
not a woman like me. Make me feel like a
woman for once in my life.”
Paul was short of words. His loving gentle
God
fearing wife had just debased him by
telling him
the most embarrassing words any woman
had
ever told him.
He was so embarrassed that he felt like
crying.
Ruth had just stripped him off his
manhood.
To be continue
