“What? You’re asking me to leave your
house?”
“Yes I am. And I’m dead serious about it.
Park your stuff and leave my house. I can’t
afford to share the same roof with an
ingrate like you anymore.”
“Has it gotten to this?
“Yes it has. It has even gotten beyond this.
The sooner you leave the better for us all. I
would so like it if you vamoose this very
night.”
“Cynthia. Do you have any idea what you’re
saying?” I…..(Cynthia cuts me in with a
yell, as she rises from her bed to face me
as though ready to get physical)
“Shut your trap young man! I’m asking you
to leave my house and you stand here
questioning me? What part of LEAVE MY
HOUSE don’t you understand? I give you till
tomorrow morning to leave. Period!”
She pushed me out of the way and left the
room to the sitting room in anger. That was
when my ego, which had been heavily
sleeping for years awoke and got the better
part of me. I was angry indeed for the first
time with Cynthia and was going to unleash
it on her, not in retaliation but because her
words had really provoked me. How could
she ask me to leave her house? Now she’s
calling me an ingrate? And all these were
because she found out there was a girl I
treasured and obviously preferred to her.
Cynthia had done me great good, that fact
is certain, but was I to repay her by
becoming her man. I didn’t even ask her to
be my girl in the first place. I would have
anyway. As a matter of fact, I was ready to,
but the process was interrupted and I ended
up not saying any word to that direction till
this very day. Maybe she hadn’t taken that
to heart yet or wasn’t even aware I didn’t.
Now she has robbed poo on my face and I
had to let out my heart to her before
leaving her house for good.
I paced down to meet her in the sitting
room and she stood up against me to
continue with her bitter ranting but I cut
her in before she could say a word.
“Shut up and listen to me Cynthia” I said
with much anger. “You may think of me to
be worse than the devil. I have no problems
with that. But I pray you don’t come across
another human that will make you see this
devil as a god. As far as you’re concerned,
I have betrayed you, deceived you, hurt
you, stole from you, used you, and did the
ugliest things to you. But I would have you
know that all the while I’ve done nothing
but prevent myself from taking advantage
of you in all the ways I would have if I was
as bad as you have labeled me to be. Now
tell me Cynthia; you gave me access to
your bank account which contains all your
money. Did I ever withdraw any money from
there without telling you about it first? And
in these past two years, have I withdrawn
anything close to 5% of the money in that
account, yet you call me a robber. Did I
oblige when you offered to buy me a car in
addition to the one you bought me barely
three months after I came to America? Yet
you call me an extortionist. Did I ever give
in to any of those rosy proposals of yours
that required a fortune to acquire? Most of
all, did I take advantage of your feelings for
me to make love to you as much as you
wanted me to? I even took overdose of
sleeping pills just to pass out and avoid
tempering with your body unduly because I
couldn’t tell you to your face that I wasn’t
going to do it. Maybe you would have sent
me out of your house if I told you so. Who
knows?
Now why do you think I did all that? I knew
my heart belonged to another girl and was
trying hard to retrieve it from her and make
it yours permanently. Unfortunately I
couldn’t. So am I to blame for that. Cynthia,
the only wrong I’ve done to you, which I will
ever regret, is not telling you about my
relationship with Ogechi beforehand. Of
course I didn’t tell you because I didn’t see
the need to. Even you Cynthia have not told
me anything about your past relationships
have you? I wasn’t really expecting to see
Ogechi again and was in the process of
getting to love you sincerely when she
popped off and I couldn’t just let her go.
C’mon, you know how it is when a man’s
heart is involved in this thing called love.
And now that I ask for a chance to tell you
how it all started between her and me so
that you can understand where we’ve come
from, you don’t want to listen. Instead you
call me names that are unfitting for even
senseless things.”
“I will call you more because those are
what you are” she retorted, nothing but a
sick needy coward. Oh, so you expect me
to thank you for not doing all that to me
right? Alright then, kudos Jesusboy. You
were such an angel to have not extorted
money from me, to have rejected my kind
offers, and not making love to me. I think I
should recommend you for Guinness book of
records. You’ve really done well to Cynthia.
Haha, done well to Cynthia my foot! What
about The Masters’ Degree Program you’re
rounding up three months from now? Was it
your doing? Weren’t you in some local radio
station presenting junk programs before I
suggested you come over and further your
studies abroad? That aside. What about the
movie directors and music producers you
now work with and make cool dollars which
prevented you from spending more than 5%
of the money in my bank account? Did I not
connect you to them? I have housed you
and taken care of you like I was your wife,
and you were enjoying the feeling all along.
Now you stand here to count what and what
you didn’t do to hurt me. Wasn’t it to your
advantage? And am I not hurt now? You are
nothing but a silly ingrate who couldn’t
even do the least thing as repay my
kindness”
“And how else was I supposed your
kindness? I retorted. By sleeping with you?
eeh Cynthia? “Would you consider sex a
perfect way of showing appreciation for
your kindness?”
I walked close to her with an evil
countenance and held her violently by the
arm and asked angrily;
“IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT, HUH?” I asked
as I shook her back and forth a little bit
violently.
“Let me go, you brute” she plead. “You’re
hurting me.”
I pushed her down to the sofa with much
anger in my heart.“You want to get laid
don’t you?” I asked with that same evil
countenance as I unbuttoned my shirt like a
child molester who was about to prey on his
victim.
“Get away from me” Cynthia yelled and
made to get up from the sofa, but I held
her back and pushed her down more
violently than ever.
It was clear to her that the beast in me had
awakened by reason of her harsh words. She
reached for her phone and dialed 911, but I
collected the phone from her and smashed
to pieces on the floor. How could she have
called me such names? Now I was going to
show her a display of those characters she
called me. When Cynthia saw me smash her
phone, it was obvious to her that I was out
of control and was capable of anything
without a second thought. Nevertheless she
still tried to pull some silly lame stunts
that couldn’t take her anywhere.
“Get away from me. I’m going to sue you if
you dare touch me.” She said with much
apparent fright.
“So now you want me to get away from
you?” I asked sarcastically. “Isn’t this what
you always wanted? I’m leaving your house
tomorrow anyway. And I can’t leave without
appreciating you for all the good you’ve
done to me. Woes betide me if I do that.
And since sex is your idea of a worthy
appreciation, you’re gonna get it hard from
me here and now.”
“Jesusboy please don’t do this. I don’t want
it.” She cried out. “Stop it”
“Did you just call me Jesusboy? I thought
you said I was the devil? And now you don’t
want it anymore? It wouldn’t be fair of me
to leave your house tomorrow without
appreciating you. So let’s get down to
business at once!”
“No oooooo” Cynthia screamed. “Please
stop this foolishness.”
I ignored her pleas, raised her up from that
sofa and pushed her hard against the wall.
Cynthia had tempered with my person by
calling me “NEEDY,” amongst the many
other unwholesome names she called me,
one of which depicted something like me
NOT BEING MAN ENOUGH due to not
sleeping with her. What I was doing was no
way of showing her how man enough I was,
but I was angry. And you know that thing
they say about anger; IT MAKES YOU SEE
WHITE AS BLACK.
She tried to struggle with me but
surrendered when she got weak and
couldn’t do much to save herself anymore.
She looked in my eyes and saw blood
coldness and evil determination. She may
have wanted love making from me, but
definitely not from the me I had
transformed to. She began shedding tears
immediately and her mouth gave way to
tender pleas;
“What you’re about doing will rob you of
the honor and reputation you’ve built for
yourself over the years. Anyone who hears
it will despise you and you’ll definitely end
up in jail for forcing yourself to get
something I had given to you freely for
countless times and you rejected. Think of
that before you proceed. No matter how
much my words hurt you; they can’t be
compared to the hurt I felt when I
discovered that the guy I had given my
heart to was truly in love with another girl.
I nearly lost my life in the process. Have
you forgotten that already? No woman in
my position will smile at you after being
through such ordeal as I have in the past
weeks. No matter how angry you are at me
right now, you should also consider my
pain. I loved you with all my heart and was
ready to give the world for you. Calling you
names and throwing angry words at you are
the least I can do right to express the
immeasurable pain I feel inside of me. But
if you want to manhandle me and rape me
afterwards, go ahead. Just remember that it
would only add to the evil you have done to
me for the past years. I pray I die in the
process. That way I get to skip the misery
and depression I would live with if remain
alive.
The many striking statements Cynthia made
killed my will to proceed; I set her free and
walked away from her to my room to cool
off. She went to her room also and changed
from the rented nightie into something else.
I flashed back on my life and saw that
though I hadn’t really done a lot to
jeopardize my future, I had done a little to
change a great part of it. I started crying
as I thought about the supposed mistakes I
had made all the while and the
consequences that were to follow. I lost
Ogechi my love, and stood no chance with
Cynthia. These two ladies were the best I
had ever seen in the world. Losing them
both wasn’t going to do much good to my
marital affair. Who was going to win my
heart like Ogechi? And who was going to
love and care like Cynthia? I had lost two
precious stones and may have to make do
with fine wood all my life. Well, that’s the
best I thought I could find besides them.
But then, I crossed Cynthia out completely,
for she had humiliated me by asking me to
leave her house. The only one I was truly
losing remained Ogechi, the only one I ever
truly loved. The denouncement didn’t permit
us to be together again, so I guessed I just
had to finish up with my program and
proceed to start a new life somewhere in
Hollywood. Thanks to Cynthia, I was now
financially stable and well connected. It
was just a matter of coming in contact with
time and chance to hit stardom and live the
life I had always dreamed of living, and
also have everything I ever desire except
the one thing I had always had; LOVE
To be continued.
